Oh my goodness...it's been I while (approximately 4 days) since I've been on deviantart
it's...so...beautiful...
I was swamped with a H.U.G.E - I mean HUGE, history group project...whoopie...
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Does anyone else HATE group assignements...since one poor sap who is afraid to fail does mostly EVERYTHING. Well I'm the poor sap...I got the food, the clothes, made four posters, made the slide show, made the script, the african instruments...and the list goes on...I GOT MOSTLY EVERYTHING! And the teacher went, 'very good project' and unbeknowst to her I did mostly all the work and got very little credit...very little...and the thing is my group members shared the good grade...the only thing they did was that 3 of them brought a poater each...whoopie, decorated paper....
So by the next day, I felt pretty good with myself, until I went to Literature class...I was so busy with the history I forgot I had another homework to do for the teacher which was a journal from a short story character's point of view and that bleeping bleep bleepity bleep bleepers of a bleeping woman gave me a bleeping bleep bleeping bleep bleep bleep!!!! AAAARRRRUUUUGGGGHHHH!!!!
!!! WWWHHHYYY!!
...right now I'm crying my eyes partially out beccause she gave me a homework demerit and a zero...and for WHAT?!?! THE HOMEWORK WAS FOR GROUP WORK!!! AAAARRRRUUUUGGGGHHHHH!!!! *@#$&@**$%@!!!
The students that were bleeping in my history group project group some of them were in my Literature group and those bastards did nothing!!! THEY DIDN'T EVEN DO THE LITERATURE!!! THAT GOT ME SO F******* PISSED!!! I never, NEVER get mad like how I am now!!!
OH GOSH!!! I COULD JUST PICK UP MY CHAIR AND HIT IT IN THE WOMAN'S HEAD!!! AND THE THING IS SHE WON'T HEAR REASON!!! I told her I was so busy for the week that I simply forgot and she said she didn't care!!! I got so mad it took all my will power to keep myself from killing her brutally!!! No, seriously, and those children they are inconsiderate, uncaring, unthoughtful, insensitive b*****!!!
I don't want to seem crazy and out of hand but it was unfair, totally unfair and the teacher would hear no reson, the girls truly destroyed my soul and I've never been mad like this!!! Many people that think this isn't a big deal it is to me, I never had to go through this and now, before I'm almost done with high school, it happens!!! UUUURRRRGGGGHHHH!!! My literature teacher gives us endless piles of homework and expects use to do it by her deadline, which isn't long, but she doesn't realise that we have mmany more teachers who give us A LOT more homework!!!
I have low blood pressure, thus, my body finds it difficult to stay concious for too long, like a time in class I just blacked out completely, slammed my head into the desk and was so for 15 minutes until I came to and everyone thought I was sleeping but I wasn't, and I felt like my heart hitting against my chest so hard and slow that it was hard to breath, and my eyesight gets blurry at times and my head gets light headed. The doctor told me I had heart palpitations and my low blood pressure doesn't help and all this stress build up makes it worse and I black out at times consecutively throughout the day...I tell my group members that and they say, yes they'll do most of it, but it would be better they say straight to my face 'do this crap yourself' because they NEVER do it and I end up doing it in the end, stay up until three in the morning, getting only three hours of sleep and dealing with taking time to test my pressure, makeing sure my medicine dosage isn't too much and going to take numerous blood tests and throat ultrasound to have time for all this. But those girlss don't understand and now I go to school and just 'sleep' on my desk they ask 'Why were you sleeping?' 'Are you okay?' of course I'm okay, I passed out for 15 freaking minutes, of course I'm okay....
Is this all fair, if anyone reads this what are your thoughts?
Sorry for venting all this but if I keep stress built up I'll just go mad, or my heart will get more problems than I can bargin for! Now I shall sleep...TTFN D:!!!